I have been hiding behind my hair, afraid to make a drastic change for many reasons. I am trying to branch out, try new things, be less afraid.
I am someone who does not like change. I function better when I know what is coming and when I know what to predict. Change is hard, but it is good too.
I almost did not want to go to Italy because I was so worried about how the kids would be without us. Guess what? They not only survived, they thrived! Change is good for everyone!
I am petrified of heights and yet I stepped outside the box and not only went up the Leaning Tower of Pisa (sweating buckets the whole time and frozen in fear at the top - for about 20 seconds) I also went to the top of the cupola at St. Peter's Cathedral at the Vatican. Facing my fears.
My hair today at 4:45 p.m.
When I got to the salon tonight and the stylist asked me what I was thinking of doing I told her that I was thinking of going short. When I showed her the photo she exclaimed, "OH! You mean really short!". I had 3 photos of styles that I liked and Tania narrowed it down to 2 photos for me - the really short hair style and then a really short bob style. We both agreed that the bob would just grow out to look like my hair usually does. That was what I was hoping to avoid. I usually come back from getting my hair cut with great hair, but hair that looks pretty much the same as always. For some reason I just felt like hacking it off this time. I told Tania to just cut it short. Hurry, before I change my mind.
When she was cutting it I started having second thoughts. That ever happen to you? At the end of the cut I started thinking that I made a big mistake, but once Tania put in some hair wax I thought the hair cut looked okay.
I have been going back and forth all night about the cut and keep looking in the mirror. I like it and it reminds me of Jamie Lee Curtis, but then it also reminds me of Monchhichis (remember them?). I am sure that after a few more days I will be used to it and like it. I can tell you that I already love that my long hair is not sticking to the back of my neck in a sweaty mess!
Up next on my list of fears to face: hot air ballooning with Jeff!